December 29, 2011
5 Minutes of Openness
It's 5-minute Friday in this final week of December 2011. After a year of profound changes globally and profound loss in my own family, I suspect that I am fresh out of profundity. However, with a prompt word like "Open," maybe I can at least manage some honest self-examination as a year draws to a close. I begin at 11:25 p.m.
What do you do when only one path is left open to you, and following it means you've officially voted with your feet?
Sometimes, when we feel we have to distance ourselves from something, we use gentle-sounding phrases like, "Don't worry; the door is always open." And yet, Robert Frost said that in life, "way leads on to way," and each of us in such a moment "doubted if I should ever come back."
A new year open before us. New opportunities. A time to reaffirm that to which we must cling as sacred, and to reexamine precisely what fits into that category. It is a smaller collection of non-negotiables, perhaps, than I have ever before in my life believed it to be.
I don't know what comes next. I want to be open to it. I don't want to be without anchors, without boundaries or limits.
I just don't want to be closed off. I need "the wisdom to know the difference." Lord, have mercy. Christ, have mercy. Lord, have mercy.
11:30 on the dot.